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I can cause "drama"
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Leftover Crack
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I hate you. I hate me. [Wednesday @ 10:31pm February 8th]
Yes I do.
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I love.... [Thursday @ 1:35pm October 27th]
[ mood | sad ]

I love when all youve had and known. And came to love. Is ripped from under your feet and into the hands of others. And theres not one damn thing you can do about it. Not cry. Not scream. Hot hurt yourself. Not anything. Because no matter what you will never have that back. I love that you kill yourself over that, that you do all you can to have that one thing thats changed your life. Thats made everything better. I love when you see those visions in your head. Of what can happen to taht thing. And I love when they all coem true. And I love when you break down because you cant take it anymore. Well Im off now.

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How fucked up.... [Wednesday @ 5:33pm September 14th]
Kids are fucked up I love it. Collapse )
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Random chats... [Tuesday @ 8:59pm September 13th]
[ mood | creative ]

rrorbusiness54: AND BIGGER THAN BOTH OUT TITS TOGETHER
rrorbusiness54: that big
gnited: holy shit that is bug
gnited: big*

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Its been a while...... [Tuesday @ 7:49pm September 6th]
[ mood | crappy ]

So its been a while since I last updated this shit with something we can all relate too. I would all like to welcome to you to my show. The Livejournal Show. So lets see. Whats something thats been ticking me off lately. Ahhh...yes. Those that tell me very stupid lies. And think I will never find out. I may seem very fuckin stupid. I may seem like a retard. But I not. As a matter of fact I am a very smart young lady. Sure I may not know math. I may not know how to spell. But fuck I got street smarts. I think thats it. Or else I can just read people really easily and find out your stupid little lies. Well anywho who gives a fuck about this? No one am I right. Yeah. Well lets move on.


So Ive got a pretty big heart. And Im so weak when it comes to seeing poor people, hurt people, sick people etc....I cant see this shit. And Ill give my life for these people. Just because it truely hurts me to see this shit. And I hate when people dont do shit over it. Its fuckin gross. If your sittin on a shit load of money. Wiping you ass with it. How about do something good with that money and give it to the poor or something. Really have you seen the fuckin news? That shit is fuckin insane. The people in the graveyards are fucking floating around. Incase you dont know what I am talking about you are a dumbass. Im talking about the hurricane. Anywho back to that. I feel bad for those people. I think everyone should atleast pitch in with soemthing and help. That would mean alot to those people. Put yourself in there shoes. Well thats all.

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Again... [Monday @ 7:07pm September 5th]
[ mood | cranky ]

New layout. :D

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[Monday @ 3:36pm September 5th]
[ mood | bouncy ]

YAYA I START SCHOOL.

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She shot me down with just a stare..... [Saturday @ 10:47am August 13th]
[ mood | crushed ]

So who can you trust? I trusted this one friend really well. And than I learned something. THat person talked about other people. Saying how much they hated that person and blah blah, and just bashing this person. Than I thought. What if that person does that with me. So fuck it man. No one spilling my feelings out to that person. For all I know there IM'ing the people they talk shit about and talk shit about me. I dont need anymore of that crap in my life. So anywho who cares about this shit. Just wanted to share.
Went to the beacho with some of the most awesomest people EVER. It was fun. Big boobed freako and I tried to get a tan. Yeah didnt work. We ended up burning the hell out of our skins. And it hurts like a bitch. My back was fuckin burning. So after we got home. We changed shower whatever the fuck. Than went to the movies. Oh god Dri hurt the fuck out of me when she came up and grabbed my shoulders. I screamed like 50 times that night. So we go in to see the Skeleton Key. And blah blah. Kayla sits down next to me. And these black guys behind us would no shut the fuck up. So in the movie. The black guy says to the screen. "Stop being white" haha. It was so funny. Big Boobed Freako turns around and goes "excuse me" haha it was so fuckin funny. Man I love the amc. and all the fuckin nutheads that go there.

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Break my soul.... [Sunday @ 1:58pm August 7th]
[ mood | cranky ]

Link to this page

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Pictures..... [Saturday @ 5:46pm August 6th]
[ mood | creative ]

Image Hosted by ImageShack.us Whys that so true?
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[Saturday @ 2:01pm August 6th]
[ mood | content ]

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Watching the days pass with nothing more than a tear drop in hand..... [Saturday @ 1:26pm August 6th]
[ mood | confused sad hurt... ]

We all listen to sad songs when were sad. We all listen to love songs when were hopeless with love. Or lose that love. Yet all these songs do to us are make us feel shitter and yet make up feel a little better knowing that your not the only one feeling that. Your not the only one with a heartbreak that makes you want to kill yourself. Your not the only one whos locks themself in there room and dont come out. You know. It makes you feel a little better yet shitter. Weird feelings it gives you. And you get chills all over your body. Every wonder why when your smiling and you feel happy tears start to come down your cheeks? I always do. And there not tears of joy, but of sadness. Or have you ever had a moment where you feel nothing can go wrong and in your mind you hope and dream and know it wont go wrong. But yet you cry because deep inside you feel it will. And it does. And you cant stop it from. And you do your best to keep everything together. And you try and try and bust your ass to make it work. But in the end it doesnt. And you end up fucked. While the other person doesnt. And you live a lie. Saying everything is perfect peachy fine. Saying your happy. And living behind a fake smile. While deep inside your crying and killin yourself over it far from happy. But yet you pretend to be happy so you wont make other people sad. Nor worry about you. And you just want everyone else to be happy. And you cant do that. Because no one will ever be truely happy. Yet you kill yourself over it wishing and wishing that they will be happy. That the person there with or love now will make em happy unlike what you made them feel. Feeling are shit and suck ass. Blah. New subject.


So lets see. I gotta run but I will finish this in a few. Okie dokie. Im black. Back to my thing. So the other day I was talking to a very stupid girl. So yes I know more than half the people in the world love Hollister and all that shit. Im sorry. But thats fuckin stupid. Let me teach ya something. All the clothes Hollister has they buy those pants shirts skirts for no more than 30 bucks. But just to add there name they add on 20 to 40 bucks on it. So here let me tell you all something. Why not go to another store and buy that same pair of pants shirt and skirts for 40 bucks less. And with those 40 bucks you can do good to the world. Give it to poor kids all around the world. I think thats a good idea. But hey thats just me.

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Past times...... [Friday @ 12:47pm August 5th]
[ mood | grumpy ]

So Im talking to Boobieless Wonderwoman. And oh god. Were talking about all the crazy past times we've had with her brother and her brothers friend. The Beaner. Ill rewrite what happened. That day. We went to Disneyland. And we had a good time. On the car ride there we put our cell phones to each others heads and made a gun out of our hands put it to our own head and said "I'll clip I'll clip I crazy Ill do it" And it was really stupid but really funny. And than around 11 we went on this liek crazy train ride. And these kids called us posers and threw something at us so we threw at em and when we were leaving we flicked em off. And than we saw em again and they threw sticks at us. And me being me I threw a penny and it hit some asian guy in the face. And it was funny cause he wasnt one of the kids who called us posers. Im not joking you we almost pissed our pants some of us did. It was such a crazy but awesome night. And the night before that Benny was calling me names so I grabbed a hanger and started to beat him with it. And than he grabed those poker things. And trid to hit me with it but was scared of me with a hanger while he had a fuckin poker. And than he grabbed a walking stick and hit me with it. So I got this math book and threw it at his head and thna grabbed the english book. It was so funny. Ahh...good times. Well tonight Im gonna go out for the first time in fuckin years. Yaya.

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Life is good. [Wednesday @ 11:13am August 3rd]
[ mood | content ]

Life is pretty good right now. Few days ago I was all boohoo I hate life. But now I fuckin love it man. Life is too short to be sad. You gotta be happy. And smile. And say "Wow I feel like a million bucks" This year has been so fuckin shitty. But yet so amazing. Met some people I wish I hadnt. Met some people I grew really close too. Felt pain I hadnt felt before. Felt happiness that I hadnt felt before. Its nice. Nice Nice Nice. STDs-O-Rama is gonna be awesome. Some bands that might be there.

Angel City Outcasts
The Unseen
Leftover Crack
Bad Religion
Anti-Flag
Lower Class Brats
Dropkick Murphys
Rancid
Theo
Social Distortion
Skinng Puppy
Nine Inch Nails
Black Flag
New York Rel-X
Devotchkas
Horrorpops
Swinging Utters
Courtney Love
Bronx
Queens of the Stone Age
Action Action
Falling Sickness
Mustard Plug
Agaisnt All Authoraty
Clit 45
The Virus
The Briggs
Global Threat
Cheap Sex
Voids
Static Lullaby
Bleed the Dream
Casualties
Lab Rats
Monster Squad
Abiotx
Drastic Actions
Frontline Attack
Mighty Mighty Bosstoner
Black Daklia Murder
The Haunted
TSOL
Toxic Norcotic
Vice Squad
The Distillers
Vigilantes
Transplants
Exit Signs
The Cure
The Pixies
My All American Heart
Adolescents
Scarling
Darvoset
Complete Control
DEK
Dirty Sanchez
The Dresden Dolls
Blondie
Billy Idol
Mr Medley

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Lalalala..... [Wednesday @ 10:59am August 3rd]
[ mood | happy ]

I feel goooddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. Lookie at my layout its so awesome.

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Tears of a Holocaust...... [Monday @ 11:02am August 1st]
[ mood | confused ]

What are these feelings we get. We feel so much yet so little. I think the best feeling there is, is when your body and mind are numb. When you cant feel anything. You cant be happy but you cant be sad. Its just no feeling at all. How awesome is that. I love it. Life just seems to get shitter everyday. I would have to say that I have made some of the most amazing friends on earth. So Robby and I are still doing STDS-O-Rama. Were gonna start calling bands. Its gonna be an awesome ass tour. Jessibeano and I are still moving to Finland in 2 years. Jimmy and I are gonna go dance. Max and I are goin to go one night to the Hollywood strip. The Jew and I are gonna hang out together and Im goin to give her, her hardcore golden star. Big Boobed Freako and I are goin to get tans together, because were tooooo white. No Boobies Freako and I are goin to dance to techno music, and her brother too. Ill finish later....

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Break Down...... [Thursday @ 3:51pm July 28th]
[ mood | crappy ]

How can something be so beautiful. Yet so ugly. How can something make you feel so amazing. Yet so bad. How can something make you want to live forever. Yet make you want to kill yourself. I truely dont know anything anymore. I never knew anything besides one thing. But that thing was ripped away from me. But it was my fault. I feel shittier than normal. Stupid tummy. Stupid doctors. Stupid life. Yet I was better. I was starting to eat. I wasnt down as much. I was a little happier. But as it says. Its all down hill from here. Im never goin to get better. So thanks to everyone whos always telling me to get better and trying to cheer me up. Thanks but you can stop wasting your time on that.

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Jesus [Wednesday @ 9:48am July 27th]
[ mood | crazy ]

Jessibeano make Jesus go bye bye. No not cool. I liked Jesus. goodness. Oh yeah I was gonna write about Finland well I dont feel like it anymore. OOOOOOK now. So lets see. What is there. Skate park today. That shit was crazy. So whats there to say. Umm....oh yeah Finland Ill write about that later. Sooooo.....lately I dont know why Ive been loving the show Cops. Ive always loved that show. But for some reason the love for that show is back. But yeah anywho Robbo and I were talkin about it. And how like a million years I wrote about how when Im on Cops Im gonna call everyone and be all "Hey Im on tv" Or Im gonna be on those Freeway chases things. Im gonna call my mom and be all "Ey ma turn to channel 5 Im on tv" Haha. Man I so would. SO anywho. Yeah back to Finland. Well Im not sure when were gonna get our asses out there. Some time soon I hope. So theres this girl I truely dont like because well she did something that really pissed me off. And shes moving to Cali. and she wants to be my fuckin roomie. Can you say WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?! Well anywho. Back to Finland. So were gonna move there. And have our drunken emo moments and sing songs like. Iris, Everybody Gotta Learn Sometime, Anything Anything, Hurt and because she loves it SUSHA SUSHA. SHUT UP THATS HOW IT GOES. And were ognna freeze our asses off. And yeah. Fun fun fun fun times. And when its like 2 in the morning here. Were gonna call everyone and be like"HAHA YOUR STUCK IN THAT SHITTY PLACE" and hang up and go dance. BAM. ok im out.

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My addiction for you kills me. [Monday @ 5:23pm July 25th]
[ mood | crappy ]

Addiction and jealousy are the sickness killing me. Kids dont ever get em. Goodness. So whats there to say. Friends will never be there. True friends will always be there. Dont let them go. Because you are goin to need them the most. When that girl or guy you are madly in love with hurts you. No one but them is gonna be there to tell its okay. When you learn that someone you truely loved died. When you hurt yourself cutting bread. There always goin to be there. Thats something that means alot. Something you should never let go. Stay true to your heart. Dont give up on your dreams. Love sucks. Dont fall in love. Stay in school. Wear a condom. Again dont fall in love. Its the most amazing thing there is when you have it. But when you lose it. It sucks more than anything in the world. It hurts. So over these last part months I have learned who my real friends are. And there not many poeple you would likely think. Its weird but nice. Well someone I was really good friends with. Who helped me out with alot. I heard he killed himself. Haha. How great. :/ life is very very fuckin funny. one moment its shitty the next is awesome. well blah. so for some reason I was looking at Phillips info. And it made me laugh.
"KOOL AID......
member those kool aid commercials?
where that big talking bowl of punch would come crashing through ur wall in ur living room.you wouldnt even know it,PSHHHHH OHH YEAA!OHH YEAAA!OH YEAA!and the little kids were all excited.YES!YES!and then they would drink outof him after debree fell in his open dumb head.he would pour himself OH YEA!OH YEA!him and his crazy tights.i dont like wen juice wears tights.its a horrible combination a bowl of juice wearing tights.fuck drinking out of him if that was me i would be like no no no no u fix that wall before my dad gets home from work hes gonna beat me with a belt hes not gonna belive a talking bowl of punch destroyed the house.u stupid idiot.yea coming from the wall is real fucking cool.using the front door is cool.DONT TOUCH ME U DRINK.U GLASS BITCH!U GLASS BASTARD.OH YEAHH!OHHH NO!naughty naughty kool aid."
That kid is the fuckin shit. Man. Miss those crazy bastards. So whats it called. I might go to that Club Monster Party. Shit thing. I dont know what the fuck its called. But that thing with Dirty Sanchez. Today I woke up with Free Willy hair. Goodness. Ill update more later.

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Hmm...... [Sunday @ 1:50pm July 24th]
[ mood | hmm.... ]

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I laugh at my stupid self. So should you. [Friday @ 7:50pm July 22nd]
[ mood | feeling stupid. ]

I have no reason to live for anymore. Ive had no reason to live for. Made myself believe I did. But it doesnt seem worth it anymore. Ive noticed that I am a fuckin stupid ass. Not in the good way. Not the funny good way. In the shitty way. Hah. Nothing new. Everyone else knew that. Just not me. Took me a while to find that out. Do people even read this shit? Whatever I dont give a fuck if they do or dont. If I dont let my feelings out I get in trouble if I let them out I get in trouble. So both ways Im fucked. It a Friday fuckin night and Im sitting at home. While I can be out doin something. How sad I ditch everything for something that isnt even there. Ive noticed that I am also everyones back up plan. Time waster. Talk to the stupid ass until someone you want signs on or calls. When that person youve been waiting for comes on or calls just ignore the fuck face. Great isnt it? For everyone else but for me it isnt. And people wonder why people kill their self. Well let me tell you why. People are assholes to these people. They treat them no better than they would treat cockroach. They hurt them. Badly. Really badly. The kind of pain that you will never forget. The kind that doesnt heal over time. They do things behind their backs thinking they will never find out. We do find out. Mainly why people hang, slit their wrists etc.....is because there is a pain that will never be gone. Not over 30 years. Not over 30 days. It will always remain. And as the time passes by it will hurt more than it did. Blah. No one cares if I write that or not. Well today I was goin to go to the sounds of the underground. But I didnt. Like a dumbass. I stayed home. And all I am goin to do is wait till its about 12. Than get those 10 messages and feel even more like shit. Wow life is amazing.

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I walk a road with empty souls...... [Saturday @ 10:14am July 16th]
[ mood | creative ]

So its been forever since I last updated here with something that might help some people. Something meaningful. So last night I was talking to a few people. Yeah I know I have lots of problems myself. Trying to deal with them. But last night I felt good I made a point to some people. Love is confusing. We all know that. Life sucks we all know that. But Ive learned something your not gonna make life suck anymore less if you sit around and cry about it. You gotta go out there and make it different. See Steph I do understand things you tell me. :) Well anywho dont mind that. People should never give up on their dreams. For even as impossible they seem. You shall one day reach your dream. You just gotta put all you got into it. People haven't seen the worst even if they think they have. They havent. Far from it. So lets see. I lost everything I was goin to say. Ahhh....well anywho. Ive been listening to all these sad fuckin songs lately. Man Im so lost. So I love the song Horror Business. But I have no fuckin idea what it means. I think I never shall. So last night I watched Kill Bill. Goodness I love that shit. I love how those asian people talk. One day I shall talk like that and be all asian talking like. And like yeah. So after that. I started to watch Mayor of the Sunset Strip. And like always the catchy fuckin songs man. Dramarama's one hit wonder. Anything Anything. Its an amazing fuckin song. Poor guy is madly in love with this girl, hell do anything for her. If she wants to die hell give her the pills to die, and he will die right next to her. Man thats some deep shit right there. DEEP SHIT IM TELLING YOU. Before I die I want to be known for something. And no not for the biggest boobs. Fuck man. But I want to die and be like all over the place and have poeple be like "Oh that freak did blah blah blah" That would be awesome. But I dont want to be known for a killer or anything like that. Something real and big and meaningful something that affected the lives of many people. Maybe some day. Who knows. Well yeah.
I♥Steph. ♥ All of ya.

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Helping a dude out..... [Friday @ 8:07pm July 8th]
[ mood | crazy ]

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[Thursday @ 3:03pm July 7th]
[ mood | sick ]

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||| 46%
Stability |||||||||||| 43%
Orderliness |||||||||| 36%
Altruism |||||||||||| 50%
Interdependence |||||||||||| 50%
Intellectual |||||||||||||| 56%
Mystical |||||||||||||||| 70%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Religious || 10%
Hedonism |||||| 23%
Materialism |||||| 30%
Narcissism |||||||||||| 43%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 43%
Self absorbed |||||||||| 36%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||| 63%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 50%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 63%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Wealth |||||||||||||||| 63%
Dependency |||||| 30%
Change averse |||||||||||| 43%
Cautiousness |||||||||||| 50%
Individuality |||||||||||||| 56%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 63%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||| 70%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||| 44%
Histrionic |||||||||| 36%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 70%
Vanity |||||||||| 36%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||| 50%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||| 63%
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Life is confusing [Tuesday @ 3:51pm July 5th]
[ mood | and confused ]

Every wonder how you can love someone with all your heart and soul, but than hate them more than anything in the world? Its yet another mystery in the game of life. You do so much just to have that one person notice you, yet it seem like all they do is ignore you. Your insides start to slowly die. Your heart starts to dry up, your lungs stop working so good, your stomach hurts more than anything in the world. Yet all you want is to be with that person, who can make anything better. You know it's going to hurt you, but you still don't care. You wake up in the middle of the night just to think what that person doing, if their sleeping or talking to someone. If their sleeping what are they dreaming about. If their talking to someone you wish that person was you, or you wish they were talking about you. Slowly you know your dying. Your body's dying. Your dying just to be with that person. But yet you know if this person goes away, you won't die slowly anymore, you'll die in a heartbeat. Yet all you want is the heartache to go away. There yet is not a way for that. You cry yourself to sleep cause of this person. But it does not ever make a difference. You keep your feelings deep inside of yourself. To not hurt yourself nor that person......
We'll never know the answers to why we do half the things we do. Why we listen to sad music when we are sad. Why we listen to songs about heartbreaks. Why ever just get tangled up in the game of love. Why we make friends. Why do we eat. Why we are alive. Man. Someday there will be an answer to every single question we have. I just hope that day comes soon.
My buddy and I were talking about, how love sucks, but than it's just the most amazing thing on earth. When we are not going to be needed anymore we are going to move to somewhere, were no one will know who we are nor were anyone will find us there. Which is in about a couple of months. Or we might stick around for at the most 2 more years. But we are so gone from here in 2 years. More than a thousand miles away from this shitty country. How that sounds so awesome. You really do not even know.
Every time I hear the song Hurt by Nine Inch Nails, I really do not like the Johnny Cash cover, it's just blah. Anywho. Every time I hear it I get a chill down my back. Well there really is no use to talk about anything on here today.

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:/ [Wednesday @ 6:23pm June 29th]
[ mood | if anyone cares to know ]

man. i hate when people say that they want my life, or that i have the perfect life. its scuh a lie, and no one should want it. my life is shit. im sick of life itself. there was one person that kept me goin everyday. thought "wow this is amazing" haha. riiight. just like everything else, that person came and went. the emotions are still there, and will always be for me. but i dont think they will for that person. im pretty sure there dead. i feel like such a waste of that persons time. i hate how i feel deep inside. not about that person but about myself. i feel like such a dumbass. i waste a whole perfectly good day just to wait to talk to this person. but than when i do they tell me that there busy or to hold on. and yet like the dumbass i am, i wait, i go to bed than wake up to see if their back and guess what they did come back for about an hour. and all i would like is one message, that says a. "i love you have a good night" or b. "i fuckin hate you, get out of my life" but hey what am i talkin about im the one that fucked up. i got what was coming for me. my sister says she dont want me to talk to this person anymore. she says if im gonna talk to this person and than fall asleep cryin, that that is bullshit. but i need this person. that person doesnt need me. but i need that person to keep goin. well someone of you might or might not know. but i have really bad stomach problems. suppose to have a surgery around july 20th. i think its pointless. why live when you have no reason for? oh well. im sorry for bein a waste of time. have yourselfs a good summer.

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Haha. [Tuesday @ 10:03pm June 28th]
[ mood | nerdy ]

Lets see how many people really do this. How funny.



A girl died in 1933 by a homicidal murderer. He buried her in the ground when she was still alive. The murdered chanted, "Toma sota balcu" as he buried her. Now that you have read the chant, you will meet this little girl. In the middle of the night she will be on your ceiling. She will suffocate you like she was suffocated. If you post this, she will not bother you. Your kindness will be rewarded. ... ... ... ...

You have been warned!!!!!!!!

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hahah [Tuesday @ 10:32am June 28th]
[ mood | creative ]

You scored as Boobs. You are attracted to: boobs. You're a boob guy/gurl!

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Boobs

83%

Face

42%

Abs/Stomach

33%

Butt

17%

Penis

0%

What Body Part Are You Attracted To?(pics)
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this made me laugh, cause well its true. :D


You scored as Peter Pan. Your alter ego is Peter Pan. You are a child at heart. Anything you believe is possible, and you never want to grow up.

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Peter Pan

88%

Goofy

81%

Sleeping Beauty

69%

The Beast

50%

Cruella De Ville

50%

Donald Duck

44%

Ariel

38%

Cinderella

38%

Pinocchio

25%

Snow White

13%

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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You scored as Schizophrenia. Congratulations! You are schizophrenic! You know how to space out for hours at a time in a corner and that The Dark Master is not joking..... keep on tossin' those word-salads... dress mess bless!

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Unipolar Depression

100%

Schizophrenia

100%

Antisocial Personality Disorder

83%

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

67%

Borderline Personality Disorder

67%

Eating Disorders

25%

Which mental disorder do you have?
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Um...nice?
You scored as Public Nudity. You would most likely be showing to much in public because you arent ashamed to

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Public Nudity

100%

Murder

83%

Theft

67%

Being Drunk in Public

67%

Fraud

50%

What crime would you most likely commit?
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Heads Up [Monday @ 7:48pm June 27th]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

Who do people think they are. Let me tell you little fucks something before messing with me, my friends, or my loved ones. I will make your life a living hell. Make you wish you never said shit about me friends, me love ones, or me. Or just do something with one of em that I dont like. Im the worst fuckin enemy youll have. Hey if ya dont believe me, than fuck dont, but once you cross that line, oh honey, youll change how you think oh so fast. I can make you break down, I can send your business crashing to the ground, I can make you kill yourself. Im a dirty fuckin bitch. I know I am. Let me tell you a little story about a stupid whore. Called me a bitch. Well I showed her what a bitch was. Heard she cried, heard she didnt want to go out of her house anymore. Called the Big Boobed Freak and me whores. Well see we would makes good whores, cause we have boobs and lips. Something she doesnt. While she'll only get 500 bucks night, well be gettin 15 times more. Well. Just to settle this. I will make your life hell. Dont fuck with my loved ones. Dont talk shit about my friends. Dont mess with me. If you follow those few simple things your good, but if you dont BAM baby. ;)
♥ The Bitch

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Crazy Dream? [Saturday @ 11:11am June 25th]
[ mood | pleased ]

I think not. I will before I turn 30 have myself an island, not any fuckin island, Im gonna have me the Isla Paradita. My island is fuckin beautiful. Isla Paradita is approximately 65 acres of startling beauty that boasts four full miles of coastline. Located off the pacific coast of Panama, 35 miles form the southern border of Costa Rica, Isla Paradita exists in the Paraditas archipelago, an emerald scatter of over 50 uninhabited islands in the Gulf of Chiriqui National Marine Preserve. Beaches, coves, bays and cliffs, along with interior forests… all create an interesting mix and spectacular views. Offshore, fish, humpback whales, dolphins and sea turtles ply the channels between the islands. Heres a litlte history on my island. Rich in history, the island chain was discovered by the Spanish in the early 1500s. On the island, you can step back in time and explore pre-Columbian stonewalls and ancient mango forests that were planted by prehistoric Indian inhabitants. Over three miles of beautifully maintained interior pathways take you through cathedral forests of ancient hardwood trees. The calm waters of Varadero Bay on Paradita were used by the Spanish to harbour their fleet, where they accessed the craftsmanship of the native canoe makers and the hardwood of the indigenous timber to repair their galleons. I fuckin love it. It's not gonna be a crazy dream. Its gonna be a goal Im gonna reach it. Mi asian whore, and I have this great fuckin idea. Were gonna leave the prettiest side of the island just the way it is, but than the not so pretty side were gonna build a fuckin house, and a big stage. Were gonna buy those big ass fuckin lights that you can see from like 543850938450348 miles away, every night theres gonna be a show. We will charge people to stay on the island and watch the shows. We will than use that money to build houses for the poor, buy em food, clothing, and pay for any surgerys that a person can no afford. Here are pictures of my island. Hope You Enjoy Almost As Much As I DoCollapse )

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Life sucks, we all know that [Friday @ 10:10pm June 24th]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Well the other day, I was talkin to mi asian whore about the punk scene, about how its so fuckin dead. Its funny how people keep goin on with it. Generations are meant to be around for only so long. We all knew it wasn't gonna last forever. The punk scene died in the early 80's. People just get that throught your fuckin heads. It's gone for good, it will never come back. Let's face it. If it wasn't for the punk movement than damn this world would be really fuckin different. Punk isn't about fuckin anarchy. Punk was a way of life. The life kids who had nothin better to go than run around cause chaos and play awesome music. People are really fuckin funny when they call someone a poser. Guess what honeys. You didn't fuckin start the punk movement, you along with everyone else who are with the punk scene, guess what your posers. Remember kiddies. Legends never die. Punk was one of the greatest fuckin legend. A legend that should of been lived by the whole world, but it wasn't. Punk will always live in the music. But come on. Punk is fuckin dead. That way of life is gone.

Another thing is. Don't fuckin worry about a person, you don't know. I remember a lady once came up to me, and went "Your so young, you have your whole life ahead of you, why do you hang out with people like that, and drink, and do drugs?" and I was just thinking, why the fuck does it matter to you. If I were to end up in a fuckin gutter, than fuck man Im having fun in that gutter, and if Im not, than fuck it. Its my problem not yours. I know people are gonna take this the wrong way. If your a friend of mine and say that, than its really fuckin different, than a person I don't know.

I want to get away from people in the valley. Don't get me wrong. I fuckin love this place, but fuck man. I hate all these people who think life is great, and have their heads up their asses a little too high. It pisses me off. Life isn't fuckin great, it's never goin to be great. All you can do is make the fuckin best of it. I want to grab about like 700 bucks, and fuckin leave. Live the fuckin fast life. Get the hell away from here. Meet new people. Smell new smells. Run on new ground. I think I will end up doin that really fuckin soon. I can't this shit anymore.

Im tired of almost everything in life. Just thinking about goin back to school, makes me fuckin sick. Thinking about love makes me sick as hell. Thinking about death makes me sick as well. Everything I think about makes me sick. Im goin to fuckin buy that island, and live there all alone, without any contact from the outside world. My ass all alone on a fuckin island, with a guitar, tv, radio, cds, and food. Sounds just so fuckin amazing. You really have no idea.

Today I was at Kayla Meltzer's little cousins party, Zack. Adam, remember him? "Hi this is David from 31 Flavors, if you can name all 31 flavors, in 5 minutes, you get a life time supply of ice cream" or "Im gonna kick-flip your gap", well his little sister was there. I love that girl, shes so fuckin awesome, and funny. Im glad my cousin has her as a girlfriend. Even if hes cheated on her like 5 times, she loves him, its cute. Hes 11 and shes 13. Well anywho I hate their fuckin mom. Stupid crack whore bitch. I was goin to kill her. blah. New subject. Well Kayla looked super fuckin pretty. When she walked in Brian was all "Oh shit its Pairs Hilton." It was funny. Hes a funny fuckin dude. "Rock with your cock out" Well I feel bad for Zack and Sarah, their stupid aunt fuckin causes too much damn drama.

Well Im sick of life. Im just gonna go waste time. Nothin else to do.

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Im bored..... [Thursday @ 7:12pm June 23rd]
[ mood | bored ]


Your Deadly Sins



Envy: 100%

Gluttony: 100%

Lust: 80%

Pride: 60%

Sloth: 60%

Wrath: 60%

Greed: 20%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 69%

You will die in a duel.



Your Sexy Brazilian Name Is

Iasmini Sarahyba


Umm...thats hot?



Your Japanese Name Is...


Your Girl Parts Are Named: Little Sister




Your Boobies' Names Are: The Bazoombas




It's Not Sex. It's ... :
Rockin the Casbah


What the fuck?!?!


Your Linguistic Profile:



75% General American English

15% Yankee

10% Upper Midwestern

0% Dixie

0% Midwestern











Nanami Matsumoto





Your Summer Love Type is Go With the Flow
A great summer love may be in the cards for you ...
or not.
You'll have a fantastic time this summer, taking what comes.
What you want is flexible - what you'll get is up in the air.
No matter what, you'll have fun - and maybe a few flings!

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This is it.... [Thursday @ 3:02pm June 23rd]
[ mood | creative ]

Like I said, I was gonna post a entry of all the quotes I love, well here it is....
Alot of these have to do with dreaming. Don't ask. I just love em the most.

"Reality is wrong. Dreams are for real."-Tupac.
"For every dark night, there's a brighter day"-Tupac.
"I think there is only one true greatness for man. If a man can bridge the gap between life and death. I mean, if he can live on after he’s died, then maybe he was a great man. To me, the only success, the only greatness, is immortality."-James Dean.
"Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die tomorrow."-James Dean.
"Hell is empty and all the devils are here."-William Shakespeare.
"To dream anything that you want to dream. That's the beauty of the human mind. To do anything that you want to do. That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits. That is the courage to succeed."-Bernard Edmonds.
"A person starts dying when they stop dreaming."-Brian Williams
"Follow your dreams, for as you dream you shall become."-Unknown
"You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith."-M.M.M. Yet I love this quote, but haven't be able to live it.
"Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue, and the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true"-Some dude with the first name of Lyman.
"Only as high as I reach can I grow, only as far as I seek can I go, only as deep as I look can I see, only as much as I dream can I be."-Hell I'd Know, saw it on a light post.
"Never let dreams die because life without dreams is like a broken winged bird that cannot fly"-Unknown, read it in NY.
"Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens."-Carl Gustav Jung.
"I have had dreams, and I have had nightmares. I overcame the nightmares because of my dreams."-Unknown.
"If you can dream it, you can do it. Always remember that this whole thing was started with a dream and a mouse."-Walt Disney.
"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live."-Norman Cousins.
"Love is stronger then death even though it can't stop death from happening, but no matter how hard death tries it can't separate people from love. It can't take away our memories either. In the end, life is stronger than death."-Unknown.
"Have the courage to live. Anyone can die."-Robert Cody
"Somebody should tell us, right at the start of our lives, that we are dying. Then we might live life to the limit, every minute of every day. Do it! I say. Whatever you want to do, do it now! There are only so many tomorrows."-One of the Popes.
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away"-Unknown.
"The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion."-Don't Memeber The Name.
"Undermine their pompous authority, reject their moral standards, make anarchy and disorder your trademarks. Cause as much chaos and disruption as possible but don’t let them take you ALIVE."-Sid Vicious.
"Suicide sometimes proceeds from cowardice, but not always; for cowardice sometimes prevents it; since as many live because they are afraid to die, as die because they are afraid to live"-Charles Caleb.
"Loving can cost a lot but not loving always costs more, and those who fear to love often find that want of love is an emptiness that robs the joy from life."-Merle Shain.
I'd do more, but my eyes are killing me. and my bawys back :)

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When You Die...... [Tuesday @ 3:22pm June 21st]
[ mood | cranky ]

"Rock & roll is so great, people should start dying for it. You don't understand. The music gave you back your beat so you could dream. A whole generation running around with a Fender bass......
The people just have to die for the music. People are dying for everything, so why not music? Die for it. Isn't it pretty? Wouldn't you die for something pretty?
Perhaps I should die. After all, all the great blue singers did die. But life is getting better.
I don't want to die. Do I?"-Lou Reed.
I love this. Don't ask why. It's just so amazing, and deep. Even if I bet he was on LSD while he said that. Man Im just gonna have a fully entry on quotes that I love. But it is not gonna be this one. This one is for my thoughts of the day.

When I read that. It made me think. "Wow, thats true people do die for great things, yet are those things really that great worth dying for?" The answer I came up with, wasn't all that great, but yet its the best I think anyone could do. Something is so amazing for one person but yet so dull, for another, but yet that doesn't answer the question. The answer is. If its worth killing yourself that fuck man, it better be worth it. If not, than your fucked. Your dead. Bye Bye.

"And so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow,
I still have a dream
we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children,
black men and white men
Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join
hands and sing
"Free at last, free at last.
Thank God Almighty, we are free at last."

Today I called my little cousin and asked him to please save me, and in the background he was playing 911 for Peace, and it was the part with Martin Luther King Jr.'s I Have A Dream speech. I just think those are amazing words. Yeah sure, I didn't like Jews till a while ago. I learned that you can't just think that someone is the same as their peers. Yet I have a big problem with stereotyping, and yet I did that. Which is really fucked up. I love Jews now, so much that I want to be Jew, yes yes go ahead and laugh. I don't give a flying fuck. Im gonna be the next fuckin Martin Luther King Jr. dude man, but im gonna rock even harder than him. Im dead fuckin serious about this. Gonna go finish high school, go to collage or whatever, become a teacher, than a bartender, than fuckin write an awesome speech, and fuckin run for prez. Than there will be no more hating, nor stereotyping.


You know life is very funny. You hate one person, but than you befriend that person, and hate a person that was your friend. You fall in love with the least person youd expect. Your best friend turns out to be your enemy, your enemy turns out to be your life long friend. You know this, when your best friend isn't there when you need her or him, but when that person you hate is there, right besides you. Yet you have those one friends, who are always gonna be there for you no matter what, when something happens to you, there gonna be right by your side, even if they fuckin hate you at that point.

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Gone for good she said..... [Monday @ 7:10am June 20th]
[ mood | rejected ]

lets dance that night away. lets dance the darkness away. lets become one. lets dance to the sound of the wind. lets dance until its the end of the world.....

ive always wondered about death. you dont go to heaven you dont go to hell. "Hell is empty and all the devils are here." in the words of William Shakespeare. everyone single one of us is a devil, to one person or another. but than to other people we are angels. yet. what happens when we die? do we walk the earth with the living? or do we go another realm? these are questions that we will never really have an answer too until we lay 6 feet under. sometimes i feel like just gettin the answers to these quesetions, now. yet again. what about the questions we cant answer, but we have to be alive for.

god life is so confusing. cant they make a like handbook. "Handbook for The Living" "Handbook for The Dead" that would be nice. really nice. all the questions we ever wondered, answered. thatd be really really helpful. gods man. well im gonna go now. ill update later. i forgot what i was gonna right about anywho. later people. have yourselfs a good day. take care of yourselfs. and the little ones who need takin care of. I ♥ Steph

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[Saturday @ 10:31pm June 18th]
[ mood | bitchy ]

we were kids without a soul purpose in life. no reason for being. social outcasts. look down upon. normal life was too simple. yet the fast life was too risky. picked the fast over the normal. became land pirates. ruled the streets of la. traveled out into the unknown world. met some strange people. met some life long friends.....


so ive noticed that a lot of people turn to music when they have problems. but yet some need music to live. music is life. life is music. i never understood why people became what they did. tell a while ago. and i came up with a theory. ha ha no not the boob one. (if you don't know that one, here it is, we don't have big tits you people just have small boobs) you've 3 paths. you choose one. once you choose that path there is no turning back. you gotta make the best of it. out of those 3 paths. one will be the life of drugs, sex, and of course music. another one will be finish high school, but work a shitty job. the last one, which i hope every single one of you stupid little fucks pick. finish high school, go to collage or whatever. get a good job, find someone to love, have a family, and die happy. i came up with another theory about love. for every guy there is 7 lovers, he will choose the one he wants. for every girl there is 3 lovers. for a girl, she will have one love that she will lost for good. she will have one lover who will be nothing more than just a friend. and the last one, is the one she will fight for. but yet for a guy i really cant think of how it works. first 4 are fuck lovers. the 5th one is just a friend with benefits. the 6th one is the one he lost by cheating on her. and the 7th one is the one who will spend the rest of his life with.

yup. had to get that out of me. all ya take care of yourselfs. sorry if im really bitchy. nothin agaisnt anyone.
<3 Steph

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eh, huh? [Thursday @ 6:01pm June 16th]
[ mood | AHAHA ]

what the hell is up with people sayin i listen to shitty music. its really fuckin funny, but guess what shit heads, im not the one listening to fall out boy, i die today, or none of that gay shit. if it wasnt for me more than half the people in the valley wouldnt have a fuckin idea who the distillers. but yet im the one who ends up bein the "poseur" for listenin to bands who like almost no one haves a fuckin clue who they are. leftover crack? the bronx? action action? angel city outcasts? river city rebels? anti-flag? bad brains? the devotchkas? dropkick murphys? horrorpops? lunachicks? skinny puppy? my point is there. cause i bet all you stupid little fucks. that if it wasnt for me youd have no fuckin idea that any of these where bands. but keep callin me names cause its really funny kiddes.

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[Wednesday @ 8:33pm June 15th]
[ mood | exhausted ]

nd: RODRIGO IS A LIAR
54: haha
nd: HES TLAKIN IN FREAKIN SPANISH THINKIN IM A BEANER!
54: is he the fat mexican kid?
ica: UR NOT IGNOTING ME
54: haha
ica: HAHAHAHAHA



fun times fun times.

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Nothing Around But Your Sad Lies. [Tuesday @ 5:28pm June 14th]
[ mood | anxious ]

walking down a lonely hall. no one around. no sign of life. just a lonely hall. paper dancing to the wind. pushing the hair into the eyes. of a mare soul, lost and confused. making the long lonely walk down that hall. no looking back. just forward. swept by nothing less than a gust of wind, lost and confused will remain. once again down that lonely hall. no more of the killing loneliness, but sounds of laughter and joy. yet the loneliness remains piercing through the skin, of nothing more than a corpse. with such laughter and joy, crying is all that is left to do. thrown to the ground. stepped on. looked down upon. no friends. no family. no life. just bitter lies. lies that came from you. lies of no other, than yourself. yet you find yourself to be the victim. the victim of a cruel mean injustice game. this aint no game. it aint no play. it aint no grudge. no looking back. buried 7 feet underground. no coming back. lost your chance. good-bye.


yet all ya'll will read this and think its about me. being lonely and "emo" its not about me. cause right now at this point in life. my life is fuckin wonderful. sure it has its ups and downs. but fuck man, its goin pretty fuckin damn well. haha. like SOMEONE told me "you know you have have a full conversation without cussing" yeah dumbfuck i do know that. but yet i try. but i cant. people are just so fuckin stupid. sure ill say "bad" words even when i have a big smile on but thats different, than when im talkin to a dumbass. well anywho.

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WHATS THAT?!?!? [Monday @ 5:04pm June 13th]
[ mood | weird ]

so i got the anti-flag song 911 for peace, or some shit like that. stuck in my head. but its weird cause i dont got the lyrics just the rhythm of the song. yeah. weird. anywho. im bored. i miss Stephy, shes not on and she promised shed be on when i came back. :/ but i still wait until her little booty gets on.

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Just because.... [Monday @ 4:25pm June 13th]
[ mood | chipper ]

Im not gonna make my livejournal friends only, but i just love these banners. there so amazing.xxxoixxx is just wow at these things.Image Hosted by ImageShack.us haha i love it. Image Hosted by ImageShack.us i love the picture and the last line on the right. Image Hosted by ImageShack.us this one made me laugh :)
haha yes i seem like a weirdo, but thats all good, cause we all know that Steph is the biggest weirdo, im pretty normal. :)

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Things I Say, That People Like [Saturday @ 5:33pm June 11th]
[ mood | creative ]

Well I've noticed that when I talk to people, they always point out a word or words I say. Here are a couple that I remember.

"hell id know"
"flying fuck"
"and the car goes vroom vroom"
"ya got mamma jamma tits"
"YOU DAMN JIMMY EAT WORLD" thats half haleys.
"i go peepee in my pants"
"my little bawy"(yes sad but there is a freak who loves when i talk about Steph, and call her a bawy"
"yeah me too"
"BEAN"
"JEW"
"anywho"
"the thing with the thingy..."
"and yeah"
"whatyamacallit"
man there so many i cant think right now. those are just a few.
i love you my weirdo. MMMMMMMMMMWAH.

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[Saturday @ 12:52pm June 11th]
[ mood | blah ]

haha. dumbass.

good times good times.


54: my eye is itchy
et: haha
et: itch it
54: nooo itd hurt
et: llol why
54: cause id be itchin my EYEBALL
et: ohh yea

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Just Like A Two Sided Coin [Friday @ 4:29pm June 10th]
[ mood | haha. riiiight. ]

54: BIG BOOBED FREAK
nd: YES BIG BOOB FREAK
good times good times.
good times that i can remember :D


people just make me laugh so much. like im not gonna say any names. people who talk non stop shit about people, and are always sayin things that arent nice about em. and than when they see that person they pretend as if they never even said anything. well guess what honeys. people find out. dont be 2 faced. just if you like someone, for fucks sake just like em. if you dont like em for fucks sake dont like em. DONT BE ALL "OH YEAH I LOVE YOU" TO THEIR FACE, THAN WHEN THEIR NOT AROUND TALK SHIT ABOUT EM. stupid fuckin middle school drama. im gettin too old for this shit. i should be in a bed, screaming out "HOT FLASHES HOT FLASHES" "MENOPAUSE MENOPAUSE" gods. leave thee old along.



anywho fuck this subject. im gonna be a teacher. i was thinking about bein a 3rd grade teacher but than thought nah. how about a kindergarden teacher, but than thought nah. so than i came up with the idea, of bein a PE teacher. :) but thatd be lame. Stephy said i shouldnt do anything with school, that i should be an CSI type of thingy. itd be cool, dont get me wrong id love it, until the moment i saw a dead little kid, id fuckin cry my eyes out. but than i thought again. im gonna make a cure for AIDS. so that when Steph and i move to Africa, and get AIDS, theres already gonna be a cure for AIDS. and herpes too. herpes just because, there sad, and gross.


life is sad and gross. but you gotta always memember you only live once, gotta make it un sad and gross. gotta make it happy and yummy. well ill finish this update later when i get home. i dont feel good. gods that suck myspace dont work on these shitty things. <3 bawy. take care all ya.

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everyone i know goes away in the end [Monday @ 4:13pm June 6th]
[ mood | feelings like such shit ]

you know what i wonder sometimes. what if like our lifes was a board game to another person. and that they just contorl our lives, and our actions. i dunno why but i just always wonder that. i hate how one day you can be having the best day ever, than the next its the shittest. one day your living as if youll never die, and than a doctor tells you, itd be amazing if you lived to be 25. funny, right? story of our lives is all the same. your born, you live a shitty life, find someone to love, lose that love or keep it, have kids than die. on sunday, im pretty sure it was. yeah. i went to the graveyard. walked around, read the tombstones. than i stepped in a fresh one. it was of a 7 year old little girl. for the tombstone said "for my little girl the 7 years i spent with you, were the most amazing and unforgettable..." and wow it just made me see how lucky i am to still be living. and just if you read all these tombstones. it makes you feel so lucky, to still have flesh, and still have your heart pounding, and to still feel love, pain, sorrow. sure that when your dead, theres no pain anymore. but you leave your love ones with that pain. which is worse than having the pain for yourself. ive learned to never give up. theres always hope, and its never too late for anything. also people shouldnt let others change there believes. a very smart girl, taught me something, that you should always love yourself. and that smoking and drinking wasnt good at all. shes taught me alot. also one very long note taught me something else. that to your love ones, your never gonna be that junkie, or fat, or ugly, fucked up person, that you are to other people. ill write in here later. im busy. later people. <3 the Stephy

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fill our hearts with thoughts of endless night time sky [Saturday @ 12:46pm June 4th]
[ mood | creative ]

you know what i love about friends. i love the crazy, fucked up, annoying, amazing, dumbest, painful moments we always have. from the singing old ass songs. to the throwing beans at each other. to running down the hall screamin like crazy asses. cant forget the bacon. to beatin up little kids. to the dancing. its all amazing. lets hope we can have many more of these moments. well anywho. different subject. so what i thought what i was doin to the summer looks like it aint ognna happen. so its the normal summer for me. warped, hell, ozz, and fuck all the other shows inbetween. if anyone needs a ride to warped just tell me, and ill see what car well go in. we can fit about 4 other people in the porsche. or we can take the van. and fit about 20 people. yeah good times. im gonna tell ya whats happening with warped. well hell no i aint goin through that traffic for another year. so we were thinkin of takin the trian there, didnt work out. gettin a hotel and spending the night, nah. so this year were gonna get our asses up at like 4:30 and head out to pick all everyone up at 5 or 5:15ish. so we'll have eveyone by like i dunno 6? grab food, fill up our tummys. head out like at 7 to seaside. get there like at who knows latest 9:30, get parking. park. get a place in line. stand in line, till 11. gates open at 11, so get in there. get a place where to find each other at who knows what time. pee. write down the times, on ourselfs or a piece of paper. go see bands. come back get pizza and drinks. and yeah.

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[Tuesday @ 6:56am May 31st]
[ mood | who really cares ]

i got an idea, lets all hide behind a fake smile. and fake happiness, from now on. and just pretend were livin the best years of our lives. dont sound like a bad plan. not at all. i use to be pretty good at that until 9 months ago, thats when i found out the meanin of real happiness, but just like evertything else i fuck up. and lose it. ive learned to lose, but ill never learn to win. i hope she can find someone who will really really really care, and not hurt her. i wish he the best of luck with everything. im about to go throw up those fries i had. food seems like just a waste of time, same as sleep, and everything else. i feel like rottin. layin in bed until something happens and the roof falls down on me, or someone breaks in and kills me. i doesnt sound bad. :/
yeah im gonna go throw those fries up, and just rot. feel free to call, i could use someone to talk too. 348-0640. i hope your all havin a good day, and remember when you got something so amazing dont let it slip away. youll feel like the lowest piece of crap ever. and than know why people commit suicide. oh well.

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[Tuesday @ 11:17am May 24th]
[ mood | annoyed ]

sooooo.....
these last past few days have been fuckin livin hell. blah. i reall wanna get away from all these people who have their damn heads up their asses too far up. haha. anywho so i have a mag. that has mcr in it. and it just reminds me of yesterday. before fuckin hell was opened inside my house. i was talkin to steph about him. and how he has aids. and shes all "ahem" and she says shes not an evil little thing. anywho. yeah haha. woah. so lately shes been playin pool on myspace. (like a nerd) :)and well got me into it. and we started playin all types of games. like the one with the turtle, the duckys, the rockets, the soccer ball, the skateboard. yeah yeah. it was cool. well anywho, im out. i dunno if ill be on later on today. well if not have a good night you little fucks. i wuv you bawy.

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[Wednesday @ 7:39pm May 11th]
[ mood | but lovin the bawy ]

Make the text for the bands you listen to bold, than add 3 of your own.

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[Tuesday @ 7:08pm May 10th]
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